Just doing my job

I was having an interesting conversation with The Boyfriend on the way back from a friend’s wedding. We were talking about future plans and jobs, and I made the comment that I’m always surprised by employers who are so impressed by me just doing my job. He said he’d had the same experience.

I have had bosses come up to me and tell me how well I’m doing and how much they appreciate me for what I’m doing for the company. Which is odd, because, although I always do my best, I don’t often do much more than I’m told. At least, I don’t think I do.

No, most of the time, it’s not me going the extra mile. Instead, it seems that my bosses are impressed by the sheer fact that I do the job that I am assigned to, get everything done on time, and do it without complaining. It makes me wonder what kind of workers my employers are used to.

It also makes me worry for my generation. I can’t say that my employers have been surprised by my work ethic just because they don’t expect much from me as a Millennial, but I can’t say they weren’t. It does seem, anyway, that my generation does not seem to have the work ethic of the generations that came before.

Honestly, I would understand if employers didn’t expect much from Millennials. After all, I don’t. I’ve been burned too many times in group projects with my peers to trust that they won’t slack off. For instance, my freshman year I had one guy send me his part of a PowerPoint only an hour(!) before the project’s due date

I’ve learned to pick out the people at the beginning of each semester that I know I can rely on to get things done. I’m even a little hesitant to work with new people in my classes just because I don’t know if they can be trusted yet.

It’s a little odd that going to college has made me less trusting of potential co-workers than I was when before I left home. It’s a little sad, sure, but that’s the reality of my situation.

I can only hope that in the future, I can work with people who will be reliable. Maybe I’ll get praised less for just doing my job, but at least I’ll know that I can trust my co-workers. And I’ll take that any day.


Am I dying, or was that an ocular migraine?

Yesterday, I had an extremely strange experience. I was waiting for some pizza to finish cooking in the oven. I sat down to hang out in my hammock (because, yes, I have a hammock in my living room) to wait and catch up on some Facebook.

But then I started to notice this little dot in the center of my vision. If you’ve ever looked through a kaleidoscope, it kind of looked like that. It was tiny at first, and I assumed that I had just sat down too hard. But then it started to grow.

By the time it was big enough to obstruct my ability to read, I started to get a little freaked out. I called my parents so that they could freak out with me.

At this point, the little dot was no longer little or a dot. It had grown into sort of a half circle of weird kaleidoscope-ness growing toward the left edge of my vision. I could read again, since the center of my vision had cleared. But I kept my eyes closed, because I was fairly certain that if I opened them for very long, I was going to get a massive headache.

My parents were a lot more worried about it than I was (we have weird brain problems in my family history, so I understand). I was a little freaked, because this is something that I’ve never experienced before. However, I had a friend a month or two ago that had the exact same thing happen to him.

My parents convinced me to call a friend to get them to take me to the hospital. I called one who was out of town. Just as I was trying to find another one, it went away. It was almost more disconcerting that it was just gone after freaking me out for half an hour. But, hey, I didn’t have to go to the hospital, so I was thrilled.

After the visual weirdness went away, I looked up ocular migraines, since I could read again and I was pretty sure that was what my problem was. I found this explanation online, which fit my symptoms perfectly:

Ocular migraines are painless, temporary visual disturbances that can affect one or both eyes. Though they can be frightening, ocular migraines typically are harmless and self-resolve without medication within 20 to 30 minutes.

I had a little bit of a headache afterward, but I went to bed early, and I feel fine now. All in all, it was really disturbing, but utterly harmless.

I wanted to write this because, I know that I would have been a lot more freaked out about what was happening to me if I hadn’t had a friend write about it before. So if you experience one of these painless disturbances, don’t immediately panic. It might just be an ocular migraine.*


This is the image that I found that was closest to how my ocular migraine looked.

*That said, if you have this kind of weirdness last for longer than half an hour, and you have a bad headache, you might still want to get looked at. Just to be safe. Trust me, I’ve had enough brain injuries to know that brain problems are no joke.

Can a story still be good if the protagonist is unlikable?

I’ve had a lot of interesting conversations with friends and family about whether or not a movie/book/video game can still be considered good if the main character is unlikable. Mostly, these conversations have circled around the movie Gone With the Wind.

I will be the first to admit that Gone With the Wind is a technical marvel of a movie. It’s shot very well, and the actors did a great job (too great in my opinion). The crane shot over the train tracks is one of the most iconic shots in movie history and deservedly so. Not to mention it has the nostalgic benefit of coming out during the Golden Year of Cinema, 1939.

But it’s still my least favorite movie. It might even be my least favorite movie because the rest of the movie is so well done. However, as a story person, I just can’t enjoy it because I just hate the main character, Scarlet.

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Why is Scarlet enough to kill my enjoyment of an otherwise good movie? Well, she’s whiny, entitled, arrogant, and never changes. At the end of the movie, she’s just as annoying as she ever was, but now she feels kinda bad just because she realized that maybe she kinda likes Rhett Butler, and now he doesn’t like her.

Also, Rhett doesn’t deserve her.

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Rhett Butler is bae.

I can’t stand this movie because of Scarlet, but my mom and many other film buffs still love it.

Maybe it’s a personal thing. Maybe it’s just me that can’t enjoy stories with unlikable protagonists. It’s not that I can’t enjoy stories where characters do bad things, even if they are the main characters. One of my all-time favorite book series, Artemis Fowl, has a protagonist who is, at least for the first few books, kinda the bad guy. But what Artemis Fowl has what Scarlet doesn’t, at least to me, is charm. And remorse. And personality.

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If you haven’t, you should go buy this book right now.

James Bond is another character that I probably wouldn’t like as a person (in most of his movies) in real life, but that I enjoy watching the adventures of. Bond is charming and handsome and self-aware. He’s kind of a jerk, yeah, but his good qualities outweigh his bad ones just enough for me to not cringe watching him.


I don’t know of another movie or book with a main character so aggressively unlikable as Scarlet. Even boring characters I can sit through better than her. I won’t necessarily enjoy the experience if the protagonist is boring, but I also won’t be actively annoyed by their very presence the entire time I’m watching or reading.

I guess what really bothers me about Scarlet is what I mentioned above: that she never changes.

One of the best things about reading a book or watching a movie is seeing the protagonist grow. It’s not always that they become a better person. A great example of a protagonist who grows into a worse person is Michael Corleone from The Godfather. But  most protagonists change for the better. In the series that I mentioned above, Artemis changes throughout the books from someone who uses his massive brain for the wrong reasons to someone who does it for the good of others.

In Gone With the Wind, though, Scarlet is the same person she was at the beginning of the movie, just a little more weary and smart. By not seeing the protagonist change, I am robbed of one of the most fulfilling parts of a story.

For me, Gone With the Wind would be just as annoying as reading an entire book where Delores Umbridge from the Harry Potter series is the main character. Annoying, entitled, condescending. Great qualities for an antagonist, but not ones I want to have in my protagonist.

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The greatest verbal b**** slap in cinematic history.


But now I’m curious. I can’t enjoy stories where the main character is unlikable, but what about you, dear reader?

And what did you think about Gone With the Wind? Do you agree with me about Scarlet? Disagree and think I’m speaking heresy? Or maybe the fact that she’s annoying doesn’t bother you.

Let me know in the comments.

Contra Mundum: Episode 10 – Let’s Get Historical!

I just realized that I forgot to post the last episode of Contra Mundum here. It was up on YouTube late on Thursday, though. So you should totally go subscribe to my YouTube channel if you want these episodes right after they come out.

Incidentally, I’m afraid there won’t be another podcast until next week since I’m home on break, and I left my editing computer with all of the software and recordings at my apartment.

But now, it’s time to introduce this new episode. I recorded this one a few months ago, but since we were talking about the opposite of current events, it’s okay!

Kristian Myrdal, my guest for this week, is a history major and lover of the tales of the little guy. In this episode, we focused on the micro-stories surrounding major events in history, instead of the big picture. I hope you all enjoy!

I had a lot of fun talking about historical events in this episode. History has been a passion of mine for a long time. Like Kristian, I also enjoy the smaller-scale stories that let you see into the minds of some of the people from times past.

There will be another history podcast sometime next year with another one of my history major friends. But next week, I’ll be sitting down with a global studies major to discuss life in other countries and missionary work!

See you next week!


I’ve always wanted to participate in NaNoWriMo, which for those of you who don’t know, stands for National Novel Writing Month. Every November writers all over the world sit down to try to write a 50k word novel in just 30 days. It sounds like it would be something right up my alley, but unfortunately, NaNo just so happens to fall around finals season.

Every single year since I heard about NaNo, I’ve wanted to do it. But every year, I also have three projects, four papers, and nine tests to study for in November. And I’m only exaggerating slightly. So I always miss out.

Thankfully, however, two things are true for me this year. The first is that I am a senior. In just a few short months, I will have graduated from college and will go on to find gainful employment that (hopefully) doesn’t have homework.

I’m hoping that next year my plate will be clear enough to fit NaNo into my schedule. If that happens, I may also try doing the blog version of NaNo, NaBloPoMo, again. I did try that a year or two ago for about a week and a half before my school schedule got too hectic.

The other thing that I love this year is that most of my projects are writing this semester. So far, this month I’ve completed a 47 page screenplay, which is about 8,250 words. Technically, I didn’t have to write one that long. The requirement was a 15-30 page screenplay, but I’ve had an idea for a TV show pilot knocking around in my head for far too long, so this seemed like the perfect time to get it out.

I also wrote a short story, which I may eventually share here, which was 1,570 words. In addition, I’ve got another screenplay of the same length as the one above that I am going to finish over Thanksgiving break.

All in all, adding those together, I’ll have probably done around 18k words by the end of NaNoWriMo season. It’s not 50k words, but with my schedule, it’s not too bad.

Tell me, are you doing NaNo? How close are you to your end goal?

My Unfortunate Hogwarts House Assignment

I was never allowed to watch or read the Harry Potter series as a kid, but I did read it when I was 16. I have been a fan since then, and ironically, I got my mom into it too. But, I had never done the actual Pottermore sorting quiz until earlier this year.

I’ve taken other “non-official” sorting tests before this. Usually, I either get Slytherin, Gryffindor, or if it’s an option, some combination of the two. I think I’ve gotten Ravenclaw like twice.

Before I tell you what I got on the official test, take a moment and think about which house you think that I would belong to. Let me know in the comments. I’m curious.

I promise I’m going to reveal it in a second, but I need to explain something. See, I made the mistake of taking the test immediately after I started dating The Boyfriend. I was in, shall we say, a slightly abnormal state of mind at the time.

I was on cloud nine with excitement. I was thinking things like, “Everything is awesome right now!” and, “All is well with the world,” and “I’m the happiness person on earth!”

So I took the test. And apparently, I’m a…

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Okay, look, nothing against Hufflepuffs. Some of my favorite people are Hufflepuffs. But I’m not one of them. I may have the hard work and loyalty traits down, but I’m far too cynical, competitive, and “intolerant” to be a good Hufflepuff.

And by the way, I (for some reason) took the Ilvermorny (American Hogwarts) sorting quiz months before I took the Hogwarts test and, more importantly, months before I met The Boyfriend. I got the Horned Serpents house.

From several articles that I read, Horned Serpent seems to line up with Ravenclaw, which for me, actually makes sense. When I look at the list of traits for Ravenclaw, those are the ones that most line up with my personality.

But who knows, maybe deep down I really am an adorable little badger with a love of fairness and patience…


Late to the Party – Uncharted 2: Among Thieves

I didn’t think after playing the first Uncharted game that they could get better. I was wrong. Uncharted 2: Among Thieves was a fantastic addition to the series.

In a lot of ways, Among Thieves was very similar to Drake’s Fortune. The controls were more or less the same, which I enjoyed. I did play the game on “very easy” because I’m a loser I like to play games for the fun and the story (and not be too tempted to throw my controller at my TV). I’ve gotten a little bit better at not falling off of every surface to my death.

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I still fell a few times, though. Source


This game was also really pretty, like the first one. It was interesting to see it go from ruins and forests in the first game to a broken modern-day city (and then more ruins) in this one. Although I got tired of jumping on street signs (mostly because I could not figure out that I was supposed to jump on them), most of the time, I really enjoyed exploring all of the settings of the game.

Speaking of jumping, I actually enjoyed the jumping puzzles in this game more than in the first one. There weren’t any that I had had to retry 4,000 times (okay, like 30, but it felt like 4,000). I did spend a good amount of time running around trying to figure out where I was supposed to go, and then felt really dumb when I finally accepted the hint. But once I started the puzzles, they were challenging, but not infuriating.

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There were a lot of ridiculous last minute saves like this for some reason. Source

Finally, I want to talk about the plot of the story. I’m always skeptical when it comes to sequels, although I’ve been pleasantly surprised before. I’ve always thought Assassin’s Creed 2 was better than the original. I would actually have to say that this holds true for this game as well.

Without getting into any spoilers, the basic story is that Nathan Drake, the protagonist from the first game, is invited to help his friends steal a lamp from a museum that will lead them to find the fabled city of Shangri-la and a massive sapphire called the Cintamani Stone. As it turns out, absolutely nothing is as it seems, and the story is filled with betrayal, danger, and ALL the jumping.

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Oh, the betrayal!!! Source

The villain for this one was fairly forgettable, I would say. But the not-so-villainous characters created enough tension that I didn’t really care about the villain being kind of boring. On the gameplay side of things, I actually found him easier to beat than the villain for the first one, even though how I beat him was a lot more interesting.

Like I said in my last Late to the Party, Nathan Drake is the heart and soul of the series. He remains as good a character in Among Thieves as he was in the first game. I was worried at the beginning of the game that he may have lost his moral core, but as the game progressed, it became clear that that wasn’t true. He was still a great guy and dedicated to keeping his friends safe.

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This is Drake’s excited face. Source

I was also happy to see that Elena (documentary girl from the last game) returns in this game. She also got a lot more character development, which is probably why I remembered her name this time. Again, I don’t want to give anything away, but she and Nathan are really adorable in this game. I’m hoping this is a trend that continues.

Overall, I was really invested in the story and the lives of the characters. Because of that, it was infuriating to have to wait to see how Nathan got himself into the situation we see him at the beginning of the game. Speaking of, the opening was hands down one of the coolest and most stressful game openers I have ever played through.

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So stressful! Source

I really loved this game. I can’t wait to play through Nathan Drake’s next adventure.

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My body is ready.